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About the relativity of time, and more

My concept of time seems to be a bit different from the way other people see time. With me, time never goes on at a regular pace, but instead, sometimes it takes these rapid sprints, and other times it stands still. With one thing, time runs out, and another thing just stops it entirely. A good example of how completely I suck at time management is, that my previous post in this blog is from September 2017. It feels as if it was only a few weeks ago, but I guess I have to trust my calendar on this. This was not the way things were supposed to go!

Sometimes I completely lose track of time, especially when I’m making art. On many days I haven’t noticed that I’ve been painting for hours until the evening sun starts to shine through my window. This time of year the sun barely sets at all, so I can’t really rely on nightfall to remind me of putting my brushes down and going to bed.

I’m also possibly the worst procrastinator I know – and I also get sidetracked way too easily to get anything done. Or, well, I do get things done, but usually they are not the things I intended to do – just like right now, with this text. I actually had something to say.

The reason for me finally remembering to update my blog is that my art exhibition opens in a week at my local library. My plan is to slowly post all of my art-related content,  images etc. to this website, and this site has been a work in progress for a whole year now. I wanted to make sure that there was something to actually see online before my exhibition opens, and although there is no way this site is complete after a week, at least it has some content. This is a baby step into the right direction. Hopefully, this will become something more in the near future – the biggest obstacle seems to be my time management.

Below is my official art exhibition poster. The name of the exhibition is “Of colours and shadows” – paintings, drawings and poems from both sides of the line. I’m planning to make a virtual exhibition of the works in the real life exhibition later on, and also add more content to the gallery in general.

Väreistä ja varjoista

My art exhibition poster

Toes in water

Some people are able to dive into freezing water without hesitation. Others take time to accumulate to the temperature in order to avoid the breathtaking sensation, which you can only experience in a ice cold lake. And then there are those who wait all summer for the water to warm up, and realize too late that they never went for a swim.

I’m writing this post in the end of September, and soon I have no choice but to admit the summer is over. Lake water didn’t get warm enough for me this summer, and I didn’t get the chance to take a dive. I missed the entire summer because I waited for too long for the perfect moment.

It’s not the first time in my life that I’ve procrastinated for too long. I need to think about it, let me plan this first, hold on, I want this to be perfect. Familiar words in my vocabulary. I’ve used most of my life planning, dreaming and procrastinating, instead of just seizing the moment and taking a dive. One spring I fell into a lake just days after it was still frozen. The cold took my breath away and my clothes got wet, but that summer I didn’t waste sunny days waiting. Sometimes it’s worth a while to just go for it.

Today, I am metaphorically dipping my toes in water. Instead of dreaming about things, I’ve decided to actually experience them. Instead of waiting for someone to plant a pair of wings on my back and teach me to fly, I’m going to take measures to strengthen the wings I already have. Instead of waiting for the water to become warm enough, I am taking a step away from the shore, into the cool water.

In the autumn, the lake is filled with colour.